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Tuesday 7 June 2011

Changes... BIG ONES.

Well hello my fellow bloggers. I know I have been absent and really for no reason at all. Except I am either too lazy or doing whatever. But yea I been wanting to blog for a while. :) Things are definitely NOT the same and for that I am OH so so grateful. During all this time I have gone thru what I believed was the worst thing that could ever happen to someone that believes in love as much as I do, something I though I could never come back from, standing for what is right, understanding, letting go, finding me, falling into what has been the greatest thing I could possibly come across, have the satisfaction of being completely me with no reservations, just me and FINALLY be in what I have always though I would NEVER experience. Falling into something call AGAPE.
People that know me, know this...
I am someone that loves, TRULY loves. (Not that no ones does, because they do) But... I am one of the very few that fight for that Love till the end.Honestly I never though I would be part EVER of the many people that have LoveMagic in their lives. I though that I was going to grow old and alone. In my house with flower patterns everywhere, plastic on ALL my furniture, with cats (cause their lazy) and a garden full of flowers. Very ODD :) but I truly though that THAT was my destiny. I never truly had faith in what God had for me. I though I had met that someone that he had chosen for me and because of a mistake he was taken away. So life as I knew it had no purpose at all. I was devastated because I truly though I had done something really horrible not to deserve that promise that was given to me.
Instead HE (i.e. GOD, just in case) proved me wrong. He showed me that his promises come around on his time and not mine. Yes. It takes time (HECK it does...) for some might come earlier and we envy them, we bring ourselves down. We believe we will never find it. We get hurt while others rejoice and it makes it a MILLION times worse. We think it will NEVER come to us and it is not till we are here where I am now :) That you think "And I though he (i.e. LOVE) was never going to come". You don't wanna hear how to be patient because if you are like me patience is NOT and option. You don't wanna hear that HE WILL COME when you are single and with what you tend to believe NO to be LIFE. True he makes things so much better he enhances them X.100.000.000.000.000 and so on. But the point is you do have a life so live it. And if HE promised you someone, that someone its on his way to meet and fall for you in Gods time. Take it from me. Who though it was NEVER going to happen. So if it takes longer, don't worry, enjoy right now cause he is coming.
Now I am engaged to be Married of course and life has taken a huge change, to start a new chapter in a few months and become someone envied by someone who will eventually have what I finally found and be envied too. Makes sense? LOL I think so.
Its been a while since I updated this blog and its music, so... frankly is about freaking time I do. All the music although I like it, is depressing. It was what I was feeling at the moment, but now, all those feelings are of love and NOT for someone that was never to be in my life in the first place. Thank goodness. God has his strange ways of working. Fun and painful and long roller coasters.