Nickelback-If today was your last day! Might be the one for me, hence the rhythm!

my best friend gave me the best advice

he said each day's a gift & not a given right
leave no stone unturned
leave your fears behind
& try to take the path less travelled by
that first step you take is the longest stride

if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
if today was your last day

against the grain should be a way of life
what's worth the price is always worth the fight
every second counts 'cause
there's no second try
so live like you're never livin twice
don't take the free ride in your own life

if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
would you call those friends you've never seen?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
would you find that one your dreaming of?
swear up & down to God above
that you'll finally fall in love?
if today was your last day

if today was your last day
would you make it up by mending a broken heart
you know it's never too late
to shoot for the stars
regardless of who you are
so do whatever it takes
'cause you can't rewind
a moment in this life
let nothing stand in your way
cause the hands of time are never on your side

if today was your last day
& tomorrow was too late
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
would you live each moment like your last?
leave old pictures in the past?
donate every dime you had?
would you call those friends you've never seen?
reminisce old memories?
would you forgive your enemies?
would you find that one your dreaming of?
swear up & down to God above
that you'll finally fall in love?
if today was your last day

Thankfulness and such!

(Baby Diego and Me!)

Oh turkey week full of events! Its been painful, joyful and fun.

Last week has been painful, that pain is still dragging and will still drag till I learn to get over it. Listening to depressing music does not help but it makes me feel better after I cry for just a bit. But things will change, I have high hopes that it will.

Last week has been joyful, my sister with her baby and brother in law drove down here and my bother flew here from North Carolina. We actually never told my parents he was coming, so we lied just a wee bit and told them I was going to Walgreen's when in reality I was going to the airport to pick him up! My padres were so mad with me cause I was taking for ever, ha ha ha! When I came back I told them I could not find anything open and then when I finally did they didn't have what I was looking for, BUT i had found someone at the store... and then my brother comes in, ha ha ha, it was so funny, my dad was in total shock he could not say a word and then my mum was holding the baby and she almost dropped him screaming and such! LOL they where so happy they started to cry! :) all in all we had a wonderful thanksgiving. The entire family was here enjoying each others company, even my brothers girlfriend came by and spent time with us, BUT in all of this, guess who was missing a partner??? you are right! ME. My mum with my dad. My sister with my brother in law and baby. My brother with his girlfriend. The dogs all together. Them ME.SIGLE.BOYFRIENDLESS.ALONE. for a moment I stopped and realized I was HALF. Regardless I did have an awesome time.

Last week was fun. On Friday there was a church dance and of course my bother made me go! I HATE church parties. I felt again HALF, because most of them had their certain someone and friend and more. Me? SIGLE.FRIENDLESS.ALONE. During the weekend we spent time at the Renaissance Festival and it was pretty darn awesome. Weird people everywhere dresses in medieval times. BUT all in all it was way fun. Except for my hair, I looked like a freaking lion. Mufasa, ragh! LOL Well that's pretty much it.

Thank yous:

-To God, why? After ALL I go thru? Simple, he gives me hope.

- Family, because they support me no matter what, they love and will love what I love and that's super dandy!

-Friends, near or far, you support me too. Regardless if we talk for a minute or hours. If we never talk or barely speak to each other. I LOVE YOU ALL.

-Love, because it has showed me that for this feeling I am willing to climb mountains, that love still lives with in me like fire, and has a passions that words can not even describe.

-My job, it might not be the greatest thing out there but it pays me to do absolutely nothing and have time to do what i want to do! I have a great manager and a co-worker that's now a few of my friends in Texas, I have learned so much from them, that makes me a better person.

-My padres House

-My car

-Cold Weather

-Being Safe

-Being Free

-HOPE

-Understanding

-so much more and finally I am grateful because my heart is not a rock (yet!)

Ahhh!

I scream at the top of my lungs while I am driving, Does it help??? YES
I sing at the top of my lungs, while I drive, while a blow dry my hair, while I am at the shower, Does it help??? YES
I cry like a baby when I get mad, Does it help??? YES
I dream to much cause reality sucks, Does it help??? YES
I make I wish anytime I can, Does it Help??? YES
I love to drive fast, Does it help??? YES
I find happiness in life simple pleasures (the cherry on top of my cherrylimede, the curb I take at 50mph instead of 30mph, when i wake up and look at the mirror and find out i actually don't look that bad, the pumpkin spice smell in my car, etc. you get the pic!), Does it help??? YES
I love my family and I know they love me, Does it help??? YES
I go crazy and I get inspired by techno and classical music, Does it help??? YES
I never put my feet on the ground because earth sucks, Does it help??? YES
BUT...
Why after all of that wonderfulness my heart still aches? Because I do recognize I AM impatient, I do not have that virtue. I just want things to get fixed, I DO BELIEVE they can and that's why I try to calm myself with life pleasures!

Learning to let go!

Joseph B. Wirthlin was by far one of my fav and will still be. I find inspiration in all he said. 'Come What May, and Love It'! what an extraordinary thought! The first thing we can do is learn to laugh. As we look for humor, seek for the eternal perspective, understand the principle of compensation, and draw near to our Heavenly Father, we can endure hardship and trial. As you may know I am going thru a really hard time in my life, where nothing seems possible! I try really hard to see the best in me but i can not. I try to be positive but gravity keeps dragging me down! I don't see a purpose on my daily emptiness and how I hurt! But when I remember this words, I see the light! I just have to let go! let go and free it!

I Must be Doing Something Wrong!

Because 2009 has NOT being nice to me at all, and not only 2009 but the Big man up there! and like I said, I MUST def have done some bad in the world cause Karma is out to get me! It seems like my tears wont fix my problems, it seems like my feelings of needing to change wont fix it either. Then I wonder if I need to be perfect to deserve something good in life. My heart aches like there is no tomorrow and I have only me to blame. I love like I need that tomorrow in order to survive. It seems like what ever I do in life does not and will not bring me happiness. I am stuck, I have been stuck and I feel like I want to be somewhere else. Become someone else and finally understand why am I here. What do I have to do, in order to be seen, in order to be wanted. I just feel like I need a very long long run and just run only to exfoliate pain. Because if I just sit down my mind will only focus on how my heart suffers. Where are we going to find the strength to fight back, to be strong, to be happy and find the way. How can I find happiness if is denied. It's on restrictive access. The mirror tells me there is emptiness in my eyes.

Texts

DIME BAG

• Meaning:
  Street name for a packet of illegal drugs that is sold for ten dollars
• Classified under:
  Nouns denoting man-made objects
• Synonyms:
  dime bag; dime
• Hypernyms ("dime bag" is a kind of...):
  deck (street name for a packet of illegal drugs)

Now let me tell you the story:

Yesterday around lunch time my friend Amy (from work) received a text message that said:

Random #: Do you deliver?

Amy: Clearly he has the wrong number, but my manager told her to play a prank on them, so she did! :)

Amy: What do you want to order?

Random #: A dime on Fairlake cove or a fifteen I am broke.

Us: What does that mean??? it makes no sense so...

Amy: What?

Random #: A quarter for fifteen

Us: Lets try to google it, so we did! we also asked a few people but after carefully studying the text messages we decided to google a dime and it come up as this! DIME BAG so we look at it and you can see that above. CLEARLY he wanted drugs, so...

AMY: Oh *BLEEP* I deliver Pizza!

Random #: Oh *BLEEP* is this Jesse?

Amy: No this is Joe!

LOL

600 Tamales!

Ok, so yesterday night no one was at home, no one! just KOLATE of course! :) So... end of story.

Nah, well I called my mom to see where she was and she said she was making tamales! WHAT??? Tamales? Where? Donde? Why? so she the told me the story, there is this lady at her work, who apparently is her cousin from Guatemala (her grandma and my moms grandma where sisters! ahhh? yea!) well, she is sick an cant afford to pay all medical bills, so... all the friends from work got together and sold tamales. 600 tamales. WOW!!!so they can give some money to her. They have been making tamales since 15:00 and it was now 20:00 and they had 200 more to go. :( so... it touch my heart and i offered to help. I ended up with "masa" everywhere.

There where tamales there, there where tamales everywhere!!!

DREAM...

http://www.thescooterlounge.com/stella1.html#buddyimage

FEEL super FREE to get it for me on Christmas!!! :) I want the 125.

The Past.

I REALLY HAVE to get OVER IT!!! I though I did! The past is not pretty, well some is :), but I don't want it back. It hurts. not all of it, but one alone. 'HE' the one that send my heart down the darkest deepest hole. I DON'T want him in my present, is that really so much to ask? Part of me does, part of me is curious, part of me still thinks I want him. but is a tiny part. Because a huge part wants him OUT, a huge part does not care what he does anymore, a huge part of me wants to forget and finally start living love. We can only hope!

71° out

And life is getting better! (Positive thinking is critical for a joyful life!) This morning I was driving to work and decided to drive with the windows down (mind you, in Houston you HAVE to use AirCon or else you die!) and it might have been one of the best decisions I have made on 2009. It was so fresh, cloudy sky, but no rain and quiet music. That's pretty much all I needed for a pleasing ride. While all of this wonderfulness was happening I decided to attempt a blog AGAIN. (after like months and months of not doing it, lets see how I keep up!) One of the reasons I stop was because I did have so much to blog about that I just got overwhelm with the idea of non stop writing! :) LAME I know!? but when English is your second language, it kind of is THAT BIG DEAL!!! so...

I will, eventually write about ALL of the things that have happened so far. Which puts things in a different perspective, you know? when I though I have done nothing on 2009? I think different now. Now that actually have to write about it and tell the world a bit of it. I would have saved a lot of this freaking sad time I have been waisting, thinking, I have done nothing this OX Year. Reality slap! IT has been my year, ALL of it! This year has been all about me! While I kept thinking 'I have done nothing' LIE while I though I was doing nothing, I was watching my favorite soap opera (next week is the last episode! bummer!) I was recording and watching a few of my favorite shows, I was spending time with my parents, I am having time and money to travel and buy stuff that I have wanted! I have been in my nephews birth. I got to be with my brother before he left for a change in his life. I have a dog (which i wanted bad) I have gone to Dallas, Guatemala, Utah, San Diego and Louisiana, meet wonderful people and the year is not over yet. and see? all of it is I,I,I, me, me, me!!! Shocker ha? but if I do put all of it in that view everything seems better than yesterday.

Kolatte

New US Marine

Baby Diego!

LIFE IS FILLED WITH SMALL AND FUN MOMENTS, LETS ENJOY!!!

P.S. I also got and awesome phone that just made MMS available, THAT there MADE an entire day worth it!

Back from the DEAD!!!

Ok, So maybe I am not all the way back, but is coming along! :) Its been better. I don't know why it happens, but it comes. Is like i said, in those moments of loneliness and darkness that i tend to feel like this. But I fail to do the most important thing that i should do when something like this happens. That is, finding words of encouragement and looking on positive things instead of focusing on the bad. But is in times like this that we reconnect with our Heavenly Father (not that I completely have, because I still have fail to do thing that I should) But, I have a testimony that he is there no matter what, and that he some some how finds a way to let us know we are love and that life is worth living in the good and bad time! Thru scriptures, talks, random people, Letters, and most of all friends and family. I give thanks for all of that. I received a letter and a called from a couple of friends that really touch me. These girls are amazing friends, they cared enough to let me know I am loved and that I should be seeing all this wonderful thing others may see in me. Thank you so very much!
Is funny how a friends blog can lead you to another and another and well eventually find someone with a post that truly speaks to you, like the one i found with this talk from Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin "One Step after Another". From this amazing talk I got a LOT but ill try to make this quote my motto. "We don’t have to be perfect today. We don’t have to be better than someone else. All we have to do is to be the very best we can."

Spiritually, emotionally and physically DEAD!!!

So... today I have decided to write a post, not that i really wanted to, but... I guess we all go thru that moment in our life where we just feel like there is no purpose in life, that if we where to die today no one would care, yea family and friends would suffer just for a little while, but they would move on eventually. I am 24, single, not going to school, not buying a house, living with my padres and FAT. When ALL of this comes into my head I try to escape from my reality and disappear. So, I focus on my job and let hours, days and life go by, just to realize that the end of the year is right around the corner 2010 is almost here and that by this time next year ill be 25, probably and most likely single, probably not in school, for sure not buying a house, most likely living with me padres and as always FAT. My thoughts are overwhelming so i tend to step back. Sure i laugh, I live and love, but when it comes down to those times of me being alone ALL of this comes and I realize that I am not truly happy! :(
So I apologize if anyone has tried to get a hold of me and me just letting it slide. This is the reason why. I have lacked to do a lot of things, like going to church, praying, living, etc. I just feel DOWN. Bottom line? I guess I can do something about it.

LONG GONE!!!

OK, so i guess if i keep putting it off, the more ill have to write later on, the more you'll have to read, the longer the post will be, the more boring is going to get! So... Here it is.
A few points ill get on eventually this week:
- Baby shower
- Guatemala
- My Hermano
- Utah
- and now.

So... lets begin. The baby shower was pretty neat i have never done one, but i got my chance and it turn out to be quite good. I did a lot of games and everyone was having fun. Food and Games in a nice atmosphere, but the best of all, was that she got tons of presents :) I cant wait for the baby to be here. 30 more days!!! (pics to come)

Guatemala was pretty fun, I love to be down there with my family (I love them so very much). There was a downer but it was still fun. I was so happy to be with two of my best amigas (Kaycee and Sam). we got there on Saturday evening and headed home for a goodnight sleep. Sunday May 24Th. MY BIRTHDAY!!! yea... not that amazing but I was with my loved ones and that changed the entire view of things and the disappointing cake! Monday we wake up semi-Earlie and got prepared for our long and sick trip to Lake Atitlan. The ride was freaking scary and the fact that we got lost did not help AT ALL. But, we found our way back and everything went pretty much smooth the rest of the way till he had to walk the tiny hill to get to our first hotel. Sam was LOL LOL LOL you would have to be there to see her face and see how she was. To bad I denied a Tuk Tuk, she would still be my friend by now! LOL (nah, we are still pretty good buddies! LOL). The hotel/cottage was wonderfully amazing minus the bugs on my bed that never was. Everything was so beautiful and peaceful, at the end of that first day we manage to build a kind of fire thing, have crazy fun on the bathtub and fit 2 people on a twin size bed. LOL I wish i had a video we made to post it! (right??? miss Victoria's Secret Beauty Rush Coconut Crest). Next day it was bargain/walking/buying/riding a boat that almost tip over/sucky hotel/boring hotel/ugly food/sick food/reserved days in advance/not able to do what we wanted to do/humid beds/avocado trees everywhere/ convict crazy lady living in Guatemala for taking care of a child that she promise to take care of, type of day. So... you do the math. :) The next day we where so freaking disappointed for that last half of the day we just wanted to get out that it turn out to be a fun/cant wait to get out/sick breakfast food with some old milk/walking up a mountain/Extreme cable/butterfly sanctuary/driving back and stopping in a really dusty shop to buy a wooden horse/cant wait to be home type of day.
Getting bored? me too! But i am almost done with this one Guatemala thingie and ill be done for today.
So by the next day i.e.Thu.28th. My amigas got sick :( so as a good friend i let them rest and I headed to do my stuff with out them :( *sniff* *sniff* It had been a year since my grandpa died so i headed to the cemetery and just stayed there for a bit. I then went to see one of best amigas too, she was on surgery so i had to wait and wait and wait till she was ready to actually recognize me. We got to talk and catch up on thing. I return home and what do I find??? My best amigas are heading back home! :( they left me!!! :( but all i really cared was for them to be good. We did a few things before taking them to the airport and then the day was over. Nothing much exciting happened after that. I got to see some of my uncles and cousins and went to some techno club. ALL in ALL it was family time. I love my grandma, my stepgranpa and my uncles and cousins who do care about me. (again ill try to post pics later) I am le tire.

Dragging!

Ok, So I AM SO SORRY, for not blogging, seriously I have been wanting to do it cause I have some pictures and stories I been wanting to share with the few that follow this! :)

Anywho, Work has been pretty much the same, sometimes I get super bored, just because I work too fast and end up with nothing to do for the entire day! Hey, but I get paid, so... Who really cares! :) Guatemala is right around the corner and getting the feeling of OMGosh!!!

Cant wait to see me grandma! I just hope I have enough money to buy tons of treats to take back to them.

Now, as far as new thing in my life, well...

I got an IPhone, yay to that! :) So I love to take pics here and there and well I am following Kaycee's footsteps and cant contain myself to take random pics, Ill try to see if i can post some later. Also, can't wait for the new upgrade for the IPhone, because it makes me mad I cant send or receive MMS :( But the new upgrade should have lots of thing which will make it pretty darn sweet. Uh, and the apps are so neat, I downloaded the 'LDS Scriptures' and is awesome.

I started going to church again, its been a while and wow I need the spirit with me! So, I'll drive 30 min. to go to church every Sunday and I'll try to make it to most of my FHE's.

My sisters belly is getting big and her Baby Shower is this weekend. Lisa is getting married and it makes me so happy I can cry! because she deserves to be happy next to the love of her life! :) I just hope I can have that some day!

I few weekends ago I volunteer to help out with an International Festival and it turn out to be the most depressing thing ever! It rained all day and therefore no one came, but they still made me run back and forth looking for this freaking performer that I could not find anywhere, so around 2pm they let us go, because they suddenly felt that NO ONE was coming to a rainy Festival, I was soaking wet.

Like 2 weekend ago, it rained again, only, this time, was freaking scary, we got flooded and I could not even drive to work.

About 3 night ago around 1am one house in front of our house was burning and firefighters and cops from everywhere came to the rescue, so not a goodnight sleep. Mothers day was awesome, my mom loved her presents. Kolate is getting big and need to trim his nails. I went to the Rodeo and It was so fun to see how all people are created differently. Cowboys are extremely hot even if they are really ugly (Thank you Levi's). One day randomly driving around some random little town we found a random German Festival, where i bought a peasant hat and loved it! I look like a witch. Still don't have a boyfriend, nor a date, nor a boy that I might remotely like. Lastly, My Hermano is going to the Marines and it breaks my heart. The end. That should be good enough for today and 'IF' I can I'll post some pics, for the randomness of this post.

Drum Rolls!!!

Pretty Cool!

Alright, so my manager's wife is having a baby around the same week as my sister will and he gave me this website that my sister can go and blog about it (but... she wont do it) and since I am already doing it here, I was just looking around the website and found this cool calculation thingie:

Congratulations!

Your Due Date Is Monday, August 03, 2009
Your conception date was most likely Monday, November 10, 2008 You are in Week 21 of your pregnancy and your baby is 19 weeks old. Your Third Trimester will begin 5/4/2009 141 days down, 139 to go!

Fun Birthday Facts
If born on your due date, your baby's half birthday will be February 1
Your baby's birthstone will be Peridot or Jade (Married Happiness)
Your baby's Astrological Sign will be Leo
Your baby's Flower will be Gladiola or Poppy (Orange, Red and Light Green)
Your baby will be born in the Chinese Year of The Ox
This time next year your baby will be 33 Weeks Old!
Your baby will start kindergarten in 2014, be old enough to drive a car in 2025, finish high school in 2027, and will graduate from college with the class of 2031, give or take a year.

Can you imagine??? So, check this out: My dad was born in August 03 and I was born in the year of the OX, so basically that baby is going to be just like me! adorable!!!

Oh, and pretty soon we'll know what shes having, what do you think is going to be???

The need of a Camera when Spring has Sprung!

Alright! So this might not be exciting for you, but it is for me! Why the need of a camera??? well, let me tell you that I have witness one of the most odd thing in my life (probably you've seen it before, but I have not, so give me a break!) A few days ago a notice that my car was covered in something that looked like dust, I didn't pay attention till I started noticing other cars, what was it?? Well, friends, it was... (roll drums!) Pollen!!! as the days went by the cars where covered in it! I couldn't believe it so i decided to take a picture of it,but since I am a slacker i didn't, well for my own Friday the 13th luck, it rained today! so the pollen is gone and washed away from my car, now I cant record this emotional event in my life! :(
Spring is here and with it mosquito's! so watch out!!! Oh, and flowers too! :) Enjoy Spring my amigos.Oh, by the way every time I think of spring, I think of the movie 'Secret Garden', don't you? I can picture the flowers blobbing super fast,the birds eating worms, Colin trying to walk like the baby lamb and Mary & Dickon running around with the song in the background, laaaaa la la la la laaaaaa la, laaaaa la, la la la, la, la la laaaaaa!!!

I say, Lets do it!!!

Well as you know, I am a bit of an earth freak :) so to invite you to be kind of the same for a day, here you go...

Ten Things to Know About Earth Hour 2009
1. Earth Hour 2009 takes place on March 28, 2009 at 8:30 pm—local time.
2. The date was set in March because it is close to the Spring Equinox, a period when the most number of countries around the world will experience darkness in the 8 o’clock hour.
3. Earth Hour isn’t about how much energy is saved during one hour. The idea behind Earth Hour is that by working together, each one of us can make a difference on the issue of climate change. By doing something as simple as turning off the lights, we send a visual symbol to the world’s leaders that we are counting on them to work together to find solutions to climate change.
4. Earth Hour is a non-partisan event. When it comes to caring about the future of our planet, we all have a stake as citizens of the world regardless of other political beliefs and affiliations.
5. Earth Hour turns off non-essential lighting only. Lights necessary for public safety will not go out. Earth Hour has been conducted safely and without incident in more than 100 cities around the world.
6. Earth Hour is an inclusive event and everyone is invited to participate. WWF will provide tools online to enable any town, community, school, individual or organization to be part of the event.
7. WWF has designated a limited number of "flagship cities" in the US where it will devote resources to make sure the lights actually do go out. In 2009 those cities include: Atlanta, Chicago, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, Miami, Nashville, Dallas, New York and San Francisco. In addition, WWF will be seeking the support of Washington DC and the federal government.
8. Many US cities will also participate as "supporting cities." To become an official supporting city, a proclamation or some type of official confirmation that the event is supported by the local governing body of that community must be sent to WWF.
9. More than 750 cities throughout the world have already agreed to participate in Earth Hour 2009.
10. World Wildlife Fund is the organization behind Earth Hour, but many other groups and NGOs are supporting Earth Hour in 2009.

Never always comes...

The reason I say this, is because I have always said, I am so lucky I have "NEVER" been sick. well VIRUS proof me wrong! I have been at home for the past three says and left work early on Monday. All of this started on Friday and it has not yet ended. I have been sick for almost a week now and my body hurts so much, I don't stop having fever, I cant stop coughing and my nose is almost falling because of the stupid Kleenex I used. So all in all it has been a pretty darn bad week.
As far as the weekend goes thanks to Kaycee I forgot about all this. I believe we had tons of fun and I cant wait to head down to Guatemala. Friday we went to a club which was pretty fun because of the music, but the people made me sad. Saturday we went to Galveston to the Moody Gardens, but only the Aquarium was open, it wasn't all that bad but still I wanted to see the tropical rain forest! :( It was raining the entire was there and back. so Kaycee wasn't able to see the sea very well. Then something to make the day better happened... (Keep in mind it was still raining!!!) A bunch of Firefighters trucks were turning down a street and we where kind of worried that something really bad had happened, but oh no! It was Mardi Gras celebration, they were throwing beads everywhere and people where doing everything to get them, it was fun. Then at night we headed out to this Mexican place that was horrible, I am never going there again, unless I am the only one there with my family!
Sunday, (I know, I know) he went to San Antonio and walked around the river, walked to much to this market that seemed pretty close in the map, had the worst meal and service ever, in a place apparently called "Loan Star" but the ticket said Michelangelo's and walked around the Alamo. Kaycee would not stop making notes on her Ipod of how Texas sucks bad and she had to come up with good ones so it didn't seem all that bad. But now she knows why I always said I HATE Texas weather! We had fun, right Kaycee??? lol. Alright I am done.

Wonderful Addition!

Since my sister is to lazy to actually right about her pregnancy, I though to myself, why not me??? Ill be like a mother to that baby as well! :) so I've decided to make this my little project, I have yet to decide to make a new page for the baby or simply add it into mine. I guess we'll see. As for right now, don't freak out that baby on the right hand side is not mine! (well kind of! :) is Magna's, my sister!)

Be positive!

Ok, enough!!!
Ill try to see the positive side of things instead of ranting about it and blame the universe for it! Even though is hard because 'IT' hasn't stopped :(
Today I got in a car almost 'accident' and on Saturday morning my brother got IN a car accident!!! I would said Karma is out to get me, but I haven't done anything wrong, so why does this happened to me??? Is been pretty hard.
Going into details:
On Saturday my brother and his girlfriend where on a stop light when suddenly he heard a car trying to break, he looked at his rear view mirror and *BAM* right into his tinny Ford Focus, the then hit the car in front of him and *BAM* both sides of his car, smashed!!! My mom and I were at the Mall and my dad called us, so we had to hurry to the scene! Gladly he and his girlfriend were ok, but to add to the pile of the week the car is unusable! so will see what happens.
Now, me! So this morning a woke up with a good attitude and even left early to stop and get some gas, well I decided to take a new way to work which turn out to be the last thing I needed to do! I got to the fist stop to turn and tons of cars where trying to use the same way so just to get to the stop it took me about 15min. Ok I said to myself I still have time, take your time, then The other stop came and on my turn it was perfect, no cars to bug my turn, but since it had been raining the road was slippery and my moms car just slide (I HATE THAT CAR!!! it has giving me only problems!) anyways... I hit a barricade and that was it, I started crying like mad I didn't even wanted to move the car or get out or nothing I was just screaming inside, crying and tired of all of the BC I have had to put up with! when suddenly I head a knock on my window, it was a lady and she asked me if I was ok, if I was hurt or something, but my answer was 'NO' I am ok thank you! Then this car that was driving to fix the stop lights stop to help. At this point I was still on the car (I just couldn't believe that all of that was happening) He came to my door and he said do you think you can still drive it? I was like what??? How much damage did I do to the car??? He said well... not much. I had to get down to see it for myself. The thing I hit was completely dent but the car was just dent a bit from the side. Judging by the hit I seriously though I had made a huge thing to the car but I only broke a light and slightly dent the car bottom part the wheel is kind of scratching it but nothing that can't be fixed (Just trying to be positive) My padres don't know it yet and well... hope they don't get as depresses as I did!

Oddly Surprised!!!

On how the week is going. Really! didn't expected that's for sure!!!
So here's how the week is so far:
I didn't die nor get fired, instead, my co-worker did! It was quite a shock to tell you the truth (still cant decided if that adds to my bad luck of the week) It was horrible! Just yesterday! She had been missing work a lot so my boss talked to her and told her that the decision was not on his hands that it was HR's and Upper management so she got fired and she got furious and started picking up her stuff while yelling and screaming! She left just like that, without saying bye or nothing! Mean while this mean lady calls trying to talk to her and I said she was not longer employed here and she said 'you are ... lying tell that ... to ... I want to ... she is such a ... and a ... you should do a ... ... to that ...!!! (I was like *blink* *blink* What the Deuce???) So yea, that's the story in a nutshell.
As far as my padres car's it was a bit of a miracle actually because when I got home no one said anything!!! :) (Trust me, my mom is a freak about scratches on the cars and my dad too!) So, with a lot of discretion I headed out at night to see the car, Oh miracle of the earth!!! The huge scratch that I had previously seen in the morning was gone! How that happen you might ask, well, lets ask our Heavenly Father on all my good acts of kindness and he will tell you I didn't deserved that kind of punishment and decided to erase that scratch! :) all in all the week hasn't turn that bad at all! I didn't died (well, almost, when reality kicked in and told me that I was new, by myself with tons to loans to do and there would be no help if i needed it!)

Those are what are called 'Life experiences'

That's what my dad said Sunday 31st of January; When, for some odd reason my car broke down on a stop sign.
That's right my peeps! My car broke down. Not only on a stop sign, but on the most dodgy side of Waco, Texas.
Here's the hole story: Since my sister is pregnant and far away from us, we decided with my mom that every end of the month we would drive to Forth Worth to check on her belly! so we headed up there for the weekend, on Sunday afternoon it was time to say bye and head down to Houston, we had been driving for almost an hour and a half. when we had to take the exit so we could get on the Highway leading home, it was on that exit that the earth and my vehicle conspired against me. My mom, Kolatte and I were there, at night (mind you) and not a single soul to help out; when finally a lady and her husband with a good samaritan heart helped us out. The husband new a little bit about cars and somehow manage to turn on my car again and took us to the closest lit parking spot, which turn out to be quite great but still we could not see what else we could do to get home :( so my mom called my dad and told him what was happening, immediately he said ill be there (3hrs. worth of driving and waiting!). So my brother and my dad drove from Houston to Waco. It was so late we decided to stay there. The next morning we ended up towing my jeep (pics coming). I can tell you right now the week started stinking bad! Because today I was backing out to leave for work (with moms car) and scratched my dads truck! They don't know yet, and have no clue what I am going to say! So wish me better luck I might end up dying today or getting fired. Who knows! All I know, is that it was FAR (make it long) from being a life experience that will help me be better person! Blah!

I am Le'tired

Ok I think i have blogged enough, so, ill resume everything that I have left. Although I wanted one special for me dog, but nah.. is Ok. Computer says nah! :)
I got my puppy on Dec31st. I named him Kolatte and he is a Chocolate Labrador Retriever :) he is 15 weeks old and they told me is going to be a pretty big dog! YAY!!!

I did get a job on the first week and now, I am a Loan Assistant for Crescent Bank and Trust based out of Louisiana, that's why I am here now. I been here for a week and I leave tomorrow (Friday).
As far as my life goes, just on Saturday I realized that I was here for good and reality finally got me :( All of this time since I left Salt Lake a part of me was still there, thinking that I was going to wake up and I was going to be on my so hated bed and in my room. Unfortunately I was there, laying on my bed, thinking this is what you have. I wish I was there still, this time, with my family and friend, we cannot have to glories at the same time, but ill try to make the best out of this one.
That day (Dec22nd) that i left I was dying, a part of me was left behind, I honestly felt that I was leaving something, someone, truly a part of me and that feeling remains.
Please forgive me if I haven't not contacted you, I lack a lot on that!

The Holidays

Ok, so when I finally got to my sisters home all I wanted to do was drive back to the 'S'. But apparently I have to be here in the 'H'. Khristmas was good, not excellent. My parent where in Guatemala and my brother in law had to work on X-mas day, so... we went to bed early! but we were together and I guess that's all it matters :)
My parents came on Dec 31st. just on time to be with us for New Years, again it was not all that great but we are together.
We did some of our New Years superstitions and with it our wishes, instead of resolutions :) I guess I should come up with some, like Sam, and make myself 'JUST DO IT'
ill think about them.
'WELCOME 2009'

From S to the H

I though I have been super freaked out other times, but oh no, boy was I wrong :)

This ride, was definitely a ride from down below :) The only thing that got through that ride, was the 'Reflections of Christ' CD (thank you Shellina) I was crying almost the entire day. All of it, was full and full with tons and tons of snow and all i could sing was 'I need Thee every hour'. It was a scary and long ride, I wish I was there to tell you, but since you know me, you can pretty much picture me telling you this. You know, with my hand gestures and all! :)

Goodbyes, Parties and Such...

This is hard for me because is something that i was not planning at all, one day made the decision and I am wishing not to regret it! :(
But I could not ask for more, my life was blessed because i had the chance to meet wonderful angels.

Murray Christmas party was LOL, I was Jerome's date, therefore i had to sit by him :) everything was great (maybe not the Cat Lady) but I got to actually talk to Scott as a human being :) he is really cool :)
All in all, it was a amazing night! not counting Kaycee's car accident, that really scared me, but she was alright and miraculously her car too.
As far as my last day at work :( I just remember someone screaming at me, "have a nice life" and some warm goodbyes from two special ladies that where sad to see me go! so it made me feel special.

Jerome as always letting me down (but i forgive you :), because I care for you), but Shelley as always going the extra mile :) I loved all of the gifts they where perfect :)
As far as selling my bed, thanks to Kaycee, I was able to deliver with no problems at all! Except the moving of it, boy, that was hard, sorry kaycee :(

My hermano came in on Sunday morning and just like a kid, he was playing will all of the snow :)
An packing was all over me, way to much.





Goodbyes are hard, but they eventually come. Parties are fun, but they always come to an end. Such and such doesn't really mean anything, but life, is full of it! :)

Now that I'm HOME I can finally BLOG!

Hey that kind of, maybe, possibly rhymes! :) Ok, no!!!
So, at the moment, I am not exactly home, I am in training in Alexandria, LA so...
There will be a few blogs about what you all have been missing since the moment i left my beloved UTAH :(
Things that I will blog about, eventually!
- Goodbyes :( Parties and such...
- My ride from there to here
- Christmas, my sister and New year's
- My Puppy, Ya!!!
- My new job
and, and, and an up date on my soul! :)
So far, everything seems pretty dandy, but i want to go back home! Ill do what ever it takes! :)
uh... Ill update with some pics as well! do you like it?