Back from the DEAD!!!

Ok, So maybe I am not all the way back, but is coming along! :) Its been better. I don't know why it happens, but it comes. Is like i said, in those moments of loneliness and darkness that i tend to feel like this. But I fail to do the most important thing that i should do when something like this happens. That is, finding words of encouragement and looking on positive things instead of focusing on the bad. But is in times like this that we reconnect with our Heavenly Father (not that I completely have, because I still have fail to do thing that I should) But, I have a testimony that he is there no matter what, and that he some some how finds a way to let us know we are love and that life is worth living in the good and bad time! Thru scriptures, talks, random people, Letters, and most of all friends and family. I give thanks for all of that. I received a letter and a called from a couple of friends that really touch me. These girls are amazing friends, they cared enough to let me know I am loved and that I should be seeing all this wonderful thing others may see in me. Thank you so very much!
Is funny how a friends blog can lead you to another and another and well eventually find someone with a post that truly speaks to you, like the one i found with this talk from Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin "One Step after Another". From this amazing talk I got a LOT but ill try to make this quote my motto. "We don’t have to be perfect today. We don’t have to be better than someone else. All we have to do is to be the very best we can."

Spiritually, emotionally and physically DEAD!!!

So... today I have decided to write a post, not that i really wanted to, but... I guess we all go thru that moment in our life where we just feel like there is no purpose in life, that if we where to die today no one would care, yea family and friends would suffer just for a little while, but they would move on eventually. I am 24, single, not going to school, not buying a house, living with my padres and FAT. When ALL of this comes into my head I try to escape from my reality and disappear. So, I focus on my job and let hours, days and life go by, just to realize that the end of the year is right around the corner 2010 is almost here and that by this time next year ill be 25, probably and most likely single, probably not in school, for sure not buying a house, most likely living with me padres and as always FAT. My thoughts are overwhelming so i tend to step back. Sure i laugh, I live and love, but when it comes down to those times of me being alone ALL of this comes and I realize that I am not truly happy! :(
So I apologize if anyone has tried to get a hold of me and me just letting it slide. This is the reason why. I have lacked to do a lot of things, like going to church, praying, living, etc. I just feel DOWN. Bottom line? I guess I can do something about it.