I dont change...

It seems every time I promise something I always fail to  do it. I hate it. Because I always end up with regrets and put it aside until is to late to fix it or it takes longer to bring it back to the way it was. I am always overwhelm with so many other things that I forget about the most important things I should do. The past few months have been crazy in my life some super awesome, some super sad. As you know my grandparents past away and that has been really hard. Planning things for the wedding its been overwhelming and starting a new job will even be more crazy on top of everything. But God knows why he does things and all I can do is keep going. So things that had happen in a nutshell:

* I applied for citizenship a few months ago... Now I am a Citizen, now I am an American born in Guatemala :) Part of the Oath Ceremony is hard, because you renounce to the loyalty you have for country. Is like you are leaving behind part of who you are. Its then when I realize the love I truly have for my country of birth. But I am so happy that I can finally say I am an American. A proud American. I will serve my country with love and dedication. As much as love Guatemala, The United States is my home now and I love it for that too. Although I would not mind living somewhere in Europe. The fact that my future husband is part German fills a bit of that European void. Oh well I love everything that's is different. All cultures and Countries and their past. Love it.

My parent made me take a picture after :)

* Wedding plans are coming along just fine :) I am super overwhelm. I guess I cant stop typing that word because I am super tired of looking at things for the wedding. Planning a destination wedding is not as easy as I though. But the experience is going to be awesome. I can wait to share that day with my family. Flight, Hotel, dress, shoes, wedding site, restaurant, matron and made of honor dresses, couples video, invitations DONE DONE DONE. Now I only need to order flowers, tux, lanterns, extras and more extras. I can wait for all of it to be over and done with. So when I come back I can start planning the party! LOL more stress! But in reality all I want is to be married to the love of my life and my hero! Bridal shower with family in law and friends is this weekend and I don't know what to expect! Never been in that position. Bridal shower??? Never especially not in the states. (Sorry, I have been to one!) also whats the difference with bachelorette parties? I should google it! :)

I love my shoes, they are so cute. Sorry! Cant share my dress. :)

* My mom went to Guatemala and brought me a bunch of goodies. CANT wait for her to send me my things! :) She got me a poem I did to my grandma when I was a kid and we uses to go to a little town call Xenacoj. We always used to make poems on our way there and one day she said I should make one with all of them combined into one! I loved that time of my life. I was Oh so Happy! We would stay in this  town where she had a little shop and we would make ice cream (well... what we consider Ice Cream, it really is like a Popsicle but in a bad! LOL) and sell and just enjoy the simple life. We would go to the farmers market and buy fresh produce and candies. Tortillas with beans inside. Um they are so good! :) then on our way back she  would buy me ice cream for been a good companion. I love my grandmother! She was my best friend we would always be together and had tons of fun. I loved her sense of humor and all the little crazy things she did. I miss her. I know I was not the best at calling her an being in touch. I guess I was always in denial things would happen like that. I knew she knew me and that no matter what she loved me because of all we had. She knows that I love her more than words and actions can explain. I always lack to do whats best when it come to be in touch with the ones I love.

Ok that's pretty much it. Or at least what I can remember. Will post later for updates or highlights~!